Today is the first day in the next glorious phase of the Roman Catholic Church.
Last night, I attended Mass in the extraordinary rite in a parish I had previously criticized for its hopelessly Novus Ordo (albeit conservative NO) style of architecture. I made the comment here, some time ago, that upon studying the seemingly beautiful high altar in this particular church I had found that “it wasn’t an altar at all. If anything, it was a marble backdrop in the guise of a high altar. I say this because there was no actual altar itself. No surface upon which to celebrate Mass. It was apparently considered a waste of space since the free-standing marble altar in table form was all the architects ever thought the Church would need.”
At the time, I was thinking, “Well they’ve gone and built this new Church and they’ve made an effort to make it look sort of nice, sort of classic, but it’s hopelessly oriented toward the new Mass, facing the people.
And yet I watched, last night, as a diocesan priest turned the free standing altar, positioned as it was in front of the high marble faux-altar backdrop, into a thing of beauty. His vestments were a brilliant crimson, his movements precise, his Latin impeccable. He knew when to speak audibly and when to pronounce the words of the liturgy in secreto better than the pastor at my weekly indult Mass in D.C. The large church was nearly half full, on a rainy Friday night at 7:30. The te deum was sung after Mass, and I felt tears in my eyes. This was the first new extraordinary rite to be celebrated in the diocese of Arlington. Another is taking place this morning. I’ve now heard of a third area parish that will be having one.
It’s like the first buds in spring. This – this – is what a “new springtime” looks like. Things are changing. Slowly, yes, but surely. There is a Catholic renaissance at hand, in whatever shape and scope it will take. I feel like I might just be able to lay down my sword for a while.
To be blunt, I’ve grown tired of the Catholic blog space. The nitpicking, the petty debates of style over substance (or worse, style confused with substance) and the general feeling I get when running with other online trads, even those I love, that I will never measure up. There are so many strong opinions, so many sharp criticisms, so much imposition of judgment on the way we are meant to live our lives. And my wife and I have found that while we have learned much from these discussions, in our attempts to fit in that mold we have lost much of what we enjoy about life. I have enough scruples and guilt without worrying excessively about accidentals rather than essentials.
We are, as my wife has determined, “trendy trads” – an oxymoron if there ever was one. We enjoy much about the current culture and much about tradition. As our home is a fusion of cultures our life is a fusion of the old and the new. We take what is good from tradition and build upon it with what is good about now.
The search for the right answers to all of life’s questions will never end, but neither will it be settled here. I have learned and grown so much in my faith by writing about it, but I’ve also grown at times excessively weary of my faith by scrutinizing it too much in forums such as this. A professor of mine, in a line I’ve often quoted, once said that “analysis is a sort of ontological rape.” I may hold a degree in theology, but I’m no theologian. I can scrutinize the faith too much in an age where it struggles to bear much scrutiny. I need to build it up, not deconstruct it. I still haven’t figured out how.
After four years of blogging and by rough estimate nearly 1500 posts, I can think of no better time to retire from the world of Catholic blogging. There’s too much life to live, and the battle has moved beyond this place. I’ve spent the past few days battling with another Catholic in a com-box somewhere over the legalities of our foreign policy and the current war, as well as the one we’re trying to get ourselves into with Iran. And I’ve realized what a phenomenal waste of time it is. It’s not my job to convince people what’s Catholic and what isn’t. That’s for the Magisterium. It’s my job to lead my family in wisdom and in faith.
Speaking of that, I hear the sounds of cleaning going on upstairs (and I’m supposed to be participating) and at least one screaming baby, so I’d better go. I’ll still chime in from time to time on CR, and my writing career is far from over. I’ll be moving the entire archives of this blog to uncoveringorthodoxy.wordpress.com so this space can be free for whatever else I might want to use it for.
You can still reach me at skojec at gmail dot com. Until we meet again…
Yours in Christ,
Steve

